Monday, September 29, 2014

Tears of Despair

Dear Brightness,

Last night I watched parenthood movie series. I did cry a little while watching that show, but this each episode really touch my heart because in it, 20-year-old boyfriend Alex dumps 18-year-old Haddie. He broke up with her simply because he felt out of love for her. He just does not have feelings for her anymore. It hit me so hard are because of both Haddie and her mother, who is pained by her daughter’s heartache.It remind me of my past.
Daughter, this kind of breakup is the worst. When a boy dumps you, you almost want it to be the result of something you have done wrong, so you know exactly what happened that made him want to leave. However, when he tells you he no longer is attracted to you, it is so hard not to feel badly about yourself. You will ask yourself questions repeatedly: “Does he think I’m ugly and look stupid ? Did I annoy him? Is there someone else?” But it did and the man you cared about is gone.
However, there actually is a positive side to this. You will survive this, after all. It will get better every day and someday, unbelievably.
 I’ve had a painful breakup in my past, and I know I’m a much stronger woman because of them who hurt me. I never hurt anybody, i never lie to anybody, i never deceive anybody then also i get all these. The thing, which I love most, is my mom, then my friend before he came to my life. We dream so many beautiful things together; we planned many things for our life. We used to talk that we gonna tell out love story to our kids when we grow old. The way he loved me and the way he cared me that was WOW!!!, i never felt such an wonderful feelings, he gave me reasons to live, he gave me reason to fight, he gave me such an strength that no one or nothing can make me down. All things I got from him made me feel complete, especially for a woman like me who was away from home. Finally, all these things turned red.
I’m depressed and lost.
However, I can handle it better because I’ve lived through it and survived it.

It pains me to think that you might someday experience a breakup like the one Haddie did or like me. Don’t going to let anyone play with you. But I know you will bounce back from it and will be stronger because of it. Any time you need to hear a reason why you are worthy to be loved well… I’ll give you million and more.

Love you forever
May May

Monday, January 13, 2014

Encourage to help people

Dear my brightness

There are a lot of really good people in the world. We mostly hear about the bad ones and there are a lot of them as well but don’t let anyone make you to believe that there is more bad than good in the world. Because I truly believe that it’s just the opposite.

In the weeks following the birth of my angel(December 2012),I got so many presents and food from friends ,both who i knew and didn't , and our relatives.It’s not like I was sick. I’d had a baby, which is a tremendous gift in and of itself.Surprisingly,they came to happy together with us and to lend a helping hand.  Your grand mother is suffering from her kidney failure.We are looking for a donar to transplant.People are helping us to find as possible as they can.Some people and Buddhist monks came to donate the half of their kidney.I felt a little guilty for it.You know,there are tons of  incredibly beautiful people who delight in helping others.

I like helping people by listening to them and giving advice but I’m not so good at the real-life, practical, everyday stuff. Sadly, it usually doesn’t even occur to me to do such a thing.

My brightness, I encourage you to open your eyes to the needs of the people in your life. Pay close attention to what might be lacking in their current situation, and figure out a way in which you can fill that gap as much as possible.Offer to help. Don’t wait to be asked for help, because they’ll never ask.They will appreciate it more than you know.

Be popular by being nice to people, always.

May May


Thursday, October 25, 2012

I 'm tired

Not on a "pity-pot," nor ranting or venting... I'm just tired
I’m tired of being misunderstood,
               nerves are shot,
               weak – like old wood.

I’m tired of being ill,
               no energy, can’t think,
               losing my concentration.

I’m tired of so-called friends,
               stabbing me in the back,
               again and again.

 I’m tired of trying to make things right,
               i give up – I surrender,
               no will to fight.

I’m tired of seeing others in pain,
               raises frustration,
               drives me insane.

 I’m tired of not being able to cry,
               i’d melt away,
               nothing left inside.

I’m tired of being “strong,”
               i’m weak, i’m fragile,
               its gone on way to long.

 I don’t know what else to say,
              i’m hoping, i’m dreaming,
              i’m begging, i’m pleading,
              please, take this feeling away.

 Right now… I’m just tired…

Wednesday, August 29, 2012

Your present is being awaited

The time is coming near
You have filled our life with joy
With your little kicks, and your heart beat that we hear
You have made such a change
That brought a love so dear
We promise to keep you safe
To protect you from all you may fear
There will be so many memories to make
That will be sure to bring mommy a tear

As we wait for your arrival
Your daddy kisses, and touches you
Always waiting for you to move and grow
When you finally do
His face light up with joy
You know his love for you is true

Your life will bring so much joy
Bringing all the family together
Making a family of our own
With a loving daughter, mother, and father Forever
Love you my little girl ............................


What a lovely day! 

Singapore’s Smokey sky reminds me my home town’s misty sky.
But I think I will be late to take my company bus. NEVER MIND I can take public transport.

When I took MRT, it was already 7am.I was standing in front of the reserved seating. Unfortunately, 2 ppl in front of me, who was sitting on reserved seating, dozed quietly .May be they didn't notice me Bcoz either they closed their eyes or they dd not want to see the lady like me who need a seat. Come out a question in my mind, why is there no fine for not giving away reserved seating? NEVER MIND that is my daily experience. So I decided I will find a seat myself .if will not get it, stay away from reserved seating with good mood peacefully. Life has no time to neither fight nor hate. In Every single second, have to be relax & enjoy. So, u mind or don't mind Pls, try to be NEVER MIND with smile. Let’s stop my NEVER MIND story here.....
Everyone Have a nice day ahead

Ps, I used to give away the seat to whom need it even I m not sitting on the reserved areas.

Thursday, April 12, 2012

Funny Mom

It looks like a sad story…but do continue reading to the end!. It? s a lesson to learn.

I was walking through the supermarket to pick up a few things when I noticed an old lady following me around.
Thinking nothing of it, I ignored her and continued on.
Finally I went to the checkout line, but she got in front of me.
“Pardon me,” she said, “I’m sorry if my staring at you has made you feel uncomfortable.
It’s just that you look like my daughter, who just died recently.”
“I’m very sorry,” I said to her, “Is there anything I can do for you?”
“Yes,” she said, “As I’m leaving, can you say ‘Good bye, Mom?’ It would make me feel so much better.”
“Sure,” I said. An odd request, but no harm would come of it.
As the old woman was leaving, I called out, “Good Bye, Mom!”
As I stepped up to the checkout counter, I saw that my total was S$1027.50.

“How can that be?” I asked, “I only purchased a few things!”
“Your mother said that you would pay for her,” said the clerk.


*4 YEARS OF AGE My Mommy can do anything!
*8 YEARS OF AGE My Mom knows a lot! A whole lot!
*12 YEARS OF AGE My Mother doesn't really know quite everything.
*14 YEARS OF AGE Naturally, Mother doesn't know that, either.
*16 YEARS OF AGE Mother? She's hopelessly old-fashioned.
*18 YEARS OF AGE That old woman? She's way out of date!
*25 YEARS OF AGE Well, she might know a little bit about it.
*35 YEARS OF AGE Before we decide, let's get Mom's opinion.
*45 YEARS OF AGE Wonder what Mom would have thought about it?
*65 YEARS OF AGE Wish I could talk it over with Mom.....

Ps.Mom I love you & miss you all the time.....